Thursday, 26 November 2020

 When Sonia husband died in a suicide bomblast, it was no twist of fate but his own doing. Some may say that it is right for him to die for he brought upon himself a traitor by agreeing to help the enemy. The connections of Tamils with Tamil Nadu would not let their own kind suffer.

But the truth is something else. The mother who could not handle the murder of her first child sought out to discover that it was her own blood, the second son, that had done the deed.

Sonia , the mother of two noble blooded siblings, the mistress of a community, the daughter of an Italian Politician, the member of an anonymous organisation consisting of some of the most powerful people in the world. One member married her for the benefit of governance-continued governance, while his brother persisted in the play. 

The older one was ruthless, relentless and hellbent on cleaning out poverty by force. A man of such raw disposition commanded female behaviour, one which may have even trapped him. Unable to stop herself in spite of being married to a kinder and sobre Rajiv, Sonia had a torrid affair with Sanjay. As if all of this were orchestrated. The older boy Sanjay, became the instrument of his mother's propagandas. Stern and principled- like mother like son. Rajiv's dual motives and knowledge of aviation that he shared with his brother became the reasons for Sanjay's death.

Friday, 18 November 2011

These days

I will remember these days as I get old.. times of a true mixture of emotions one could imagine, sadness, happiness, betrayal, jealousy, misery, relief, anger, longing, love, hate and many more... When life brings you to a standstill you are bound to experience feelings and situations out of the box, as in things you could never fathom you would do.... I am proud to be here yet so miserable as if I doubt if this is just a zest of my destruction or is it going to be a phoenix resurrection.. either way since I cant figure it out I just have to let the nature decide its course of action...

Saturday, 12 November 2011

irony

Funny how life brings us to unknown stands and stages... one moment you are sure of knowing somebody and the next you are perplexed, confused and not so sure anymore. You detest someone for as long as you know him and in split of a second your whole built up character of his comes crashing down and vice versa. Trust is a word I have always tried to know the true meaning of, and now I find myself in a maze. truth and trust are never "absolute".

Saturday, 22 October 2011

unprecedented

All theses years you hid from me
oh! The image and perception I had
shattered, washed away in my sorrow sea
I'm angry, appalled, shaken and sad
You were my god, my love, my hero
Now I see a man so hollow
The depth, density equals zero
my broken heart breaks some more
with every thought of you
I cry in silence, my heart drinks my tears
inextinguishable thirst, tears not few
Eyes shut, yet aware of my fears
yet to haunt me my blunders
i have failed to know the enemy inside
someone who promised wonders
promised me his pride.but i will rise up nonetheless.

Saturday, 17 September 2011

now looking back

Nine months ago I wondered what was happening why was I facing such broken fortune. I had started to doubt my once well polished skills, my stability, my sanity. As if nature had decided to punish me for luck I had taken for granted.As if my life was crumbling down and I had made all the worst decisions one could ever make.

Today, I feel as though self realisation is falling into place and that nature's plan worked. A conspiracy I loathed turned out to be a boon, a lesson learnt well.I figured the difference between trust and and foolishness. My sanity stronger than ever.

No matter what happens to you- heartbreak, unsettled mind, confusion, numerous mistakes; at the end of it all if you are happy you realise that it all happened for a reason and you thank those actions and situations for what you are today and forget your regrets.I salute the one who said"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger"as I know the true meaning of it now.